Shall I

Verse 1

If I shall disappear with no clicks on the clock
I’m gone/ just think of every song of me being reborn
And I’ll never be out of your memory for long
Keep your mind and your focus strong
Well that’s depending what you focused on
Wake up everyday like I’m supposed to mourn
Looking at the poster that I’m posted on
Is that me my goodness where has the time gone
They can’t see the masterpiece that I’ve been drawing
I don’t pay no attention but I still see’em yawning
Try to forget but it’s hard to ignore’m
A starving artist living modest as a martyr
Still there’s no promising that I’ll be starving tomorrow
See I made up some changes/ we all need to change kid
Let’s start to rearrange this/

Hook

Homeless on the corner showing love to strangers
But still don’t pay attention because they all think he’s dangerous
Like damn I know I could’ve made it
Just want a cold case with the life he created
And how am I worried about Murph
When I’m drinking everyday never giving a fuck
But the alcoholics on the corner never giving it up
And that could be me with Velardi one case of beast

Verse 2

Matter fact one case a piece
See this tension released/ I don’t care
But I need you to pay attention to me
I know I’m the worst
Cause I go so deep/ I talk to ancestors in a hearse
Begging for somebody to hear me
Yet have no friends/ don’t want no one near me
So I’m yelling screaming shouting my name
Is there anybody out there glad I came
I’m so crazy, mad insane,
Should’ve been first to try cocaine
But yet never did it/ I would be too committed
Like crimes in the hood/ it would be no good
That lesson is misunderstood
That’s why we see drunk drivers everyday
While they survive another victim falling as prey

Hook

Homeless on the corner showing love to strangers
But still don’t pay attention because they all think he’s dangerous
Like damn I know I could’ve made it
Just want a cold case with the life he created
And how am I worried about Murph
When I’m drinking everyday never giving a fuck
But the alcoholics on the corner never giving it up
And that could be me with Velardi one case of beast

Verse 3

When you losing your brother like that’s okay
Move on too quick try to start a new day
Without the pain how could you write
If we all felt the same/ what a boring life
But we all seem the same and that aint right
All you actors out there/ but the cast aint tight
Maybe cause they don’t cast all types
Plus I write what the vast majority won’t like
So it seems like I’m going in this never ending fight
And it never seems like there’s an ending in sight
No wonder people run away and wanna take flight
Try to escape demons that haunt their life
Feeling suicidal after they lose their wife
But you never get her back if you cut your throat with a knife
Wanna do harm just out of spite/ And hate for the world
Won’t bring back your girl